One day, I hope to stand at the end of a long aisle waiting for my groom. I hope to wear a white dress an be all dolled up, grinning and beaming from ear to ear with joy.
I love the idea that brides wear white. It shows purity, virtue, cleanliness and so much more. I was at an event in Portland tonight, called Loveology. It was a really powerful night and I can’t wait to hear stories about how God moved.
I’ve always had a messy sexual past. I started giving myself away too young, really before I even knew what I was doing. Once it started, I felt like it didn’t matter anyway, so I kept going. Once I started caring, I felt like it was too late. So every time I got into a new relationship, I would try and try, but ultimately fail to keep purity and God in the relationship.
Last night at the event, they had a time of prayer. I stood in my spot for a while and then I decided to walk back and be prayed for. I spoke briefly to the woman who prayed for me: I told her that my past was messy (some being my fault and some being done against my will). I was feeling stuck as how to move forward from that. As I was being prayed for, tears began to stream down my face. My heart broke to hear the woman praying for me crying as well! The woman praying over me spoke about how God sees me pure and completely made clean. I saw a vision of myself wearing a beautiful white dress, frolicking about on the beach. As she spoke, I was overwhelmed with peace. I am made new by Christ. My past does not define me. It’s a story of redemption and healing.
One day, I will wear a white dress and be radiant. Maybe it will be with a man I love on earth, and maybe just celebrating in Heaven with my Daddy. Either way, I’m secure that God is bigger than anything we can possibly walk through and he is faithful in walking with us. No matter what.